Be hoping for your death wish.....

The shock sent a wave of pain through his lower back and up. That was something he least expected out of Kataro.

YOU REALLY HAVE NO IDEA HOW DAMN HARD IT IS TO DO THAT!

The shouting ridded of a lot of his energy and he layed down on his back to calm down.

Kataro put his sword up to Spencer's neck. "Then you better take some damn lessons." Then he pointed to the man that had been killed by Spencer's hands. "You see that!? You did that!! He's dead because of YOU!!" Then Kataro grabbed Spencer's hand. "That is his blood on your hands!!" Kataro was suddenly enraged. "If your life is gonna be nothing but you waking up with dead people around you, and you not know why there's blood on your hands, I should kill you right now!!" Kataro put his sword on his back.

Slowly and wearily standing up, he puts an arm around his hip and gets into Kataro's face.

THEN DO IT, SMARTASS! I WANNA SEE YOU TRY!

Spencer didn't care anymore. He was done. Done with just about everything. The hell hole called life seemed to be his total enemy now. Dying was the least of his worries by now.

Kataro's eyes widened at Spencer's demand. Kataro thought back on his months of training. He thought about his teachers words: "To become the most powerful of all weapons and meisters, you must abandon emotions, abandon feelings, and resort to harshness." "I'm giving a chance to think about your request... Are you sure you want die...?"

I-I'm done....

His voice cracked slightly when he said the last few words with a serious tone. Although he meant it, he couldn't do it. Dying wouldn't only hurt him physically, but his friends mentally and emotionally.

Kataro grabbed the sword by the blade and handed spencer the handle. "Then kill yourself..." Kataro said as his eyes began to fill up with tears. "I don't want to be the cause of pain to all the others. I want to be able to tell them that YOU killed yourself... And after I do tell them they'll begin to wonder, did spencer like us? We're we nothing but a burden to him? We're we that worthless to him?!" Kataro stood there and waited for spencer to make his choice.

He stares Kataro down for a few moments before turning his attention to the sword he was now holding. The decision ran through his head uncontrollably. "What WOULD happen if I did?........What would happen if I didn't?....."

He lifts the blade over his head and swallows. He didn't know what to do or whether he should do it or not. If he killed himself, he wouldn't feel the pain of others......but he'd feel that stubborn, annoying life or death situation of what's going on emotionally between them.

Kataro looked at Spencer. Spencer's life was in his own hands. Kataro stood there speechless. He didn't know what to say or do...

((This is a hard decision even for me. XD I have an idea. I'm going to put this into an "almost" situation.......if you know what I mean.))

Giving Kataro a look that said, "I'm sorry", he brings the blade further over his head and brings it into his own stomach. He repeats the process three times before collapsing. By now, he was choking and still in the neutral decision. But now, the question was, "DID I make the right decision?"

Everything blacked out instantaneously and all of his pain was dismissed.....

((Should we continue this in the infirmary, or stop? ono"))

((Ill make another thread at the infirmary if you want to.))

Kataro was in awe. He didn't think spencer would do it. He rushed towards him and made sure he was ok.

((Mkay. Go ahead.))

spencer......are you back???" she said weakly her voice ruff

OOC: Gee thanks for waiting guys... >.>